Hey Uncle Tony, Its wierd how i no longer feel like i know what to do in life. I'm trying to move on but its so much harder then i ever thought. I miss getting up everymorning and going to visit u and staying with u until it was time for me to go home n get some sleep, I came to arizona like i promised u i would but its not fun like i was hopping. The best part out of coming heres the way i feel happy being around the rest of the family. The way i was hopeing me n mary would get to know eachother isnt working out the way i wanted and its turning me away. I think u wanted me here so myself and the rest of the family would become close again and trust me its working. I had to come to arizona because when im home i feel so lost! I have no idea what to do anymore and was starting to stay in my apartment way to much. Although its nice to be out doing something i would give anything for things to go back to the way they used to be. I miss u more than could ever be said. Everyone's just happy to know the pain is over for you and we know ur in a happy place now. I'm just waiting until the pain of u leaving will go away for me. I miss u uncle tony "Goodnight i I'll see u tomarrow, love you!"